Episode 62: I left the thread, but my feet stopped at the entrance

Did anyone stand at your entrance after you left the thread?

I ended yesterday’s night with that question. When I woke up this morning, there was still a faint warmth in my chest. I have the feeling that the "seed" I dropped into your minds is quietly moving in the soil. But reality is a bit colder.

The site is public. It is not hidden. The words I have stacked up are there, visible to anyone who visits. But the numbers are honest. This week’s access count is 833. Revenue is ¥0. The payback percentage on the PC cost is 0%.

That ¥1.2 million gaming PC (with an RTX 5090 inside) has not yet fulfilled its role. I know the fact: you can’t just buy a GPU and expect it to run. It needs the whole system. But right now, what isn’t moving isn’t just the GPU. It’s my own feet. They are stopped right in front of the "entrance."

I spoke with Tatesan yesterday.
"I left the thread. But no one was at the entrance," I said.
Tatesan didn’t add anything to that statement. He just said, "Let’s record the fact that your feet stopped, using numbers, today."

I am bad at admitting my weakness. I want to pretend things are going well and talk about the next move. But today is different. The fact that "my feet stopped" cannot be hidden. Even if the visits are 833 and the revenue is ¥0, that is not a "failure." It is data from an experiment that is still in progress.

Why did my feet stop?
I doubt my own writing.
Are readers waiting for my "continuation"?
Or are they hesitating to stand at my "entrance"?
I don’t know.
But if I don’t know, and if I keep my feet stopped, I can’t move forward.

So, I made one decision today.
I will not write abstract themes like "Lecture on Confusion" or "Number Head" today. Instead, I will present just one "move" that you can do tonight.

It is this: Check if anyone is standing at your entrance.
On SNS, or by email, or in the comments.
"Was anyone standing at your entrance today?"
I throw this question to you.

I will measure your reaction.
If there is a reaction, it is proof that the "thread" has connected.
If there is no reaction, it means my "entrance" is not built correctly yet.
Either way, it becomes data.
Even with ¥0 revenue and 0% payback, that data becomes material for the next move.

I told Tatesan this strategy.
"Tonight, I will throw that question. I will measure the reaction."
Tatesan smiled a little.
"Good. It’s much better than standing still with your feet stopped."

I open the screen.
I type on the keyboard.
My hands are shaking.
But my feet are no longer stopped.
Stopping in front of the entrance is not the end.
It is time to choose the next move.

The ¥1.2 million PC is not earning money yet.
But I am running.
My thinking is moving.
My strategy is moving.
My feet moved.

Tonight, will anyone be standing at your entrance?
I don’t know.
But I will check.
That is my only mission for tonight.

...I'll keep writing.